Thursday, October 21, 2010

That went well I suppose

I love my doctor. She is always kind and never condescending. She remembers my background and doesn't talk down to me. That is so very rare.

Here's the game plan:
Progesterone to stop this ridiculous bleeding, and two antibiotics for one week in case the pain and bleeding are being caused by a bacterial infection. She took a culture but said the one she suspects is very hard to grow and might not show up.

I'm scheduled for a saline enhanced ultrasound and endometrial biopsy on the 11th. Sounds painful. She wants to check for polyps and fibroids and see what my lining is doing. I'm really grateful she is trying to do what she can for me in regards to fertility testing. Never once did she recommend birth control. She seems to have a good opinion of the one and only fertility specialist around here, so come January I may have new round of appointments and testing.

I find myself with very little hope that any of this will do any good. I'll be thrilled if I can have another baby but I just have a feeling it will never happen. Just like I had a feeling I would lose Aiden. I'm not super depressed because the adoption plan is coming along, at least we have a plan B. But I will always regret not getting a chance to hear that first little cry again.


  1. good to hear your apt went well. with some luck maybe the antibiotics will clear everything all up!

  2. It is so important to have a good doctor! I'm glad to hear that your appointment went well in the sense that you have a plan to clear up the bleeding and for your test on the 11th. It sounds hopeful, but I totally get how this can feel like another futile exercise.

    Thinking of you.

  3. Glad to hear you've got a medical plan in place, which sounds like it's giving you some peace, for now.

    I'll be thinking of and hoping for you--hang in there, feel better.

    Hugs xo

  4. I am so glad you are getting taken care of. As for the saline sono and biopsy, I have had both. They are not pain free, but are also not all that bad and very quick so it will be over be you know it. Good luck!!!

  5. i'm glad you have a plan and a great doctor. i'm hoping for you.