Monday, July 12, 2010

I'd be crying, if my head didn't hurt so badly

14 dpo, not pregnant.

This is the end. I'm not trying anything else. I don't have it in me. I wish we could afford going to an RE, but it's not going to happen. Off to foster-adopt we go.

I think being so sick is cushioning the blow. I am too weary and in pain to care about much else right now. Maybe tomorrow I can cry all day.

15 comments:

  1. Girl. All I can do is send you a hug. It sucks to be sick and it sucks to be sad and frustrated and it sucks to be a DBM.

    Hugs, girl. Big ones.

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  2. *hugs* I'm so sorry. I think it's so awful that the number of children we have is dictated by how much money we can spend on ART.
    Take care of yourself.

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  3. I'm so, so sorry. Know I'm thinking of you and hoping that you start feeling well soon. No sense making final decisions on babies until your brain is no longer feverish.

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  4. oh i am so sorry and i hope you begin to feel better soon.

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  5. I am so sorry Jen. This must be such a hard time for you, on top of being sick. I am glad that you have a back up plan and am so hopeful for you guys with your adoption process. I wish RE's were cheaper or at least covered under insurance.
    I imagine that you need time to grieve this loss and the loss of future bio children in general. I know that is not easy. We are here for you.
    Thinking of you.

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  6. Shit, I'm sorry on both counts. I know how often I've faced that decision and I know that it breaks you. I hope that the process for foster-adoption goes well. My heart is with you and your husband. Take care.

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  7. I'm sorry to hear that-- that this wasn't your month, and that you don't have hope for future months, and that you're sick (but I am glad that you are spared the worry of the effect of your fever on an embryo- I know it's a measly blessing, but still).

    I hope foster-adoption turns out to be a wonderful thing for you-- and I also have lots of hope that you will have another of your own at some point, too.

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  8. I'm very new to your blog but I just wanted to stop by to say how very sorry I am.
    Sending love.
    xo

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  9. I'm so sorry. Sending hugs and thoughts your way.

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  10. I'm sorry and I'm sending you big hugs. You are a wonderful mother and there is a child out there that desperately needs you.

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  11. I am sorry. I pray your road to foster/adopt is filled with laughter, joy and love.

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  12. I'm so sorry Jen. Hugs for you.

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