This is where I live
- Gulf Islands National Seashore
This is what it is about to become
- Picture from Exxon-Valdez
I'm heartbroken all over again. It will be decades before this area recovers. We will lose so many, many things that I hold dear. This is not only my home, it is my living, my passion, my career, and nearly everything I care about. I am so sensitized to death that I don't think I can handle washed up dolphins and pelicans drowning in oil. My god, how can I watch this? In my job (a biologist with the state Environmental Protection) I will be called on to help - I would anyway. But I will do it with acid in my stomach and a bigger hole in my heart. This time it isn't just me and my little family that will lose. It is everyone and everything that lives here. I find myself in denial right now. I keep thinking I will wake up and someone has found a way to stop it. If only. I feel selfish for not wanting this on top of my son's loss. But it would have been devastating to me anyway. I can't watch, but I have to.