I think I am just on overload of crappy things to deal with. I can feel myself slipping into a deeper depression but I'm not sure what to do about it.
This past week my cat got hurt and I got in a big fight with my husband about paying for a vet. He still considers the cat a stray and doesn't want to spend money on it. I can't watch something else I care about die. I took him anyway and so far he is fine, but Sean won't let me keep him in the house (we are not allowed to have pets - if we got caught we could get evicted) so I am worried he will get hurt again.
I've been working more hours than I can handle and my back is killing me. The day before yesterday I started getting a sore throat and now it looks like full blown strep. I feel like I'm choking and swallowing is agony.
I so badly want to take 2 or 3 weeks off to give my back a break, get well, and get past my looming due date. I feel so overwhelmed right now that I am just shutting down. I'm trying to get through the next five minutes and then the next five minutes. I hate that because my daughter needs me and I just can't be there for her.
I need rest. I'm so tired of how much self pity gets dumped here, but I still need it. I still need to whine about how unfair and hard everything is right now. I hope you ladies don't mind too much.