I feel more connected to the world today, more alive. I don't feel so much like I am being left behind. It's kind of nice.
I had some energy for the first time in a very long time so I went for a walk in the rain. My feet are soaked but I soaked up some peace too. I have always loved the rain, as long as it is not cold. Today was almost warm enough to be perfect.
I'm glad I can still find peace in nature. I was afraid it would be another constant reminder of what I don't have. It is, but in a kinder way. Aiden is out there, waiting for me to feel the sunshine.